Wants and Needs

Summer (what I want). Summer (what I need). Yes, I need summer. I need as much as I need water to drink and air to breathe. I need it more than I need pizza or breakfast. I need it more than I need anything. Someone out there is shaking her head at me. Need. You've got to be joking. What an irresponsible thing to say. And cue scoffing and judgemental glares. I'm aware there are starving children in Africa and plenty of horrible things going on around the world. I know. And yes, it's extremely ridiculous that I'm in need of summer. But ya know what? I don't CARE! That's what I need. I need warmth and dangerous UVA/UVB rays penetrating my skin transforming it from white to brown. I need lazy days and bikinis and swimming pools and the lake and the beach and boats and fun. I need to not care that I just typed a run-on sentence. I need to let loose. I need to not care about everything. I need an escape.

I want all of this too.

I want school to stop going so fast. I want school to go by even faster. I want to never see my prison ever again. I want it to be 7:30 so I can be with my friends in jail. I want to go to state for track and field. I want to be lazy and eat fatty foods and sit on my couch all day long.

My wants are conflicting. My needs are not. I need my wants. I want my needs.


I need to start making sense when I write on this blog.

I need to finish my homework.

Is life a series of random events strung together? Or is it a well thought out plan designed by the one and only big man upstairs? I'm kind of hoping it's the second. I hope God's got a plan for me.

The random thoughts before my eyes decide to shut their blinds and my body decides to fall limp in a deep relaxation.

Ok. That's enough crazy for one night. Sleep/Stay up well my fellow night owls!
Yours Truly, Julia