Dear Night Owls,
Tonight I am begging sleep to knock on my door. So far no luck. I can only run on 5 hours of sleep for so long. Fortunately, that's what coffee is for, right? If only it tasted better.... I got lucky today barely having homework, so why am I still awake? If I try to analyze what's running around in my mind, I only end up wearing myself out. It's maddening to think I have a ton of free time and all I end up doing is nothing. No matter how hard I try, sleep doesn't come to me.
Maybe that's my problem: trying. Somehow I don't believe not trying is the solution, so what is? Normally my go to sleep-inducer is reading, but lately once I start I can't stop. I have to know what's going to happen. Maybe that's why I stay awake so late...I feel like I can't miss out on anything. Then I have to wonder: what could I possibly be missing out on at 1:30 in the morning? It's not like anyone in my house is awake. Maybe I should go back to counting sheep...SIKE! That's unlikely. Maybe I should just do a bunch of high energy activities during the day and wear myself down like a little kid. Maybe new techniques aren't what I need.
I think what I need is an on/off switch for my brain. This whole restless mind thing isn't working for me anymore. Not tonight at least. Normally I can find things to do to occupy my time, but tonight I can feel the heaviness of my eyes, but they won't stay shut. They're fighting me and they're winning. I'm just hoping tomorrow night is a better night. Now before I let my exhaustion get the best of me, I must say good night and stay up well!
Yours Truly,
Julia
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